Life is too short to be ordinary

Dear friends,

I will move my blog to http://faisal admar.blogspot.com.

Cheers!

I did overtime from 8am – 5pm. It wasn’t so stress as usual but still tiring. Plus, I was fasting.

Rains poured the whole day. I drove straight to my sister’s house right after I punched out.

Oh yes, I couldn’t wait for the EPL games. Man Utd vs Everton, Arsenal vs Tottenham Hotspur and Liverpool vs Portsmouth.

Yeah, my team Man Utd won and got the 3 points. Arsenal did a good job by Adebayor and Fabregas. I did expect Fabregas would score a goal though. Good game from the Arsenal’s opponent too, Spurs. Thumb up to Berbatov. I was kind of frustrated with Liverpool. To me, Torres and Gerard should be listed from the beginning. Peter Croch was totally useless!

Its 12 midnight and I’m getting ready to go out fishing. Yes, I’m tired but fun will make me forget about it. Hopefully not raining tonight =)

Recently Penangites worried about earthquake and tsunami right after the news came out on radio and tv. The earthquake has happen in two days ago (first day of fasting month though). I didn’t go to work because I couldn’t sleep the night before – I slept at 4am! But as usual, I’ve to take mom to work no matter what (I’m not mumbling…). Hidayah was with me and she didn’t go to school. Ah! She was just being lazy. At 7.45am, mom called me. She told me that the whole KOMTAR was shaking and they had to run down using the stairs! Dude, imagine the 60 floors building and you’ve to use the stairs. Even I’m the youth won’t do so haha! It happened like 5 times. Same to my office building, the mates did run. Luckily I didn’t go to work =P

Yesterday, I was back to the office scenery. I suppose they missed me a lot?

There was no shaking anymore but the rain never stops.It stopped pouring for a while, as you can see a cloudy day in the picture.

It’s 8:30am Saturday morning and I have to go to work for overtime. I hate working when people are sleeping soundly at home. But I have to. Too much works at office.

Friends plan to go fishing tonight around 10pm but I’m not sure yet since it has been raining days and tsunami warn still around. After all Manchester United’s match is today! =)

On 11/09/2007 was the last day in course (Penulisan Memo Secara Berkesan). Well, I learnt something but trust me, it was a boring course (

Around 6pm I called Ajil (my best friend) for shopping. Luckily he worked on morning shift. So, he agreed. We went to QueensBay Mall as it’s the best, the biggest and the nearest one. Hehehe…

The plan is to buy:

• Books – Inheritance and Golden Compass
• Shirt
• T-Shirt
• Wallet

Turned out only two things I bought (what do you expect when we reached there at 8.15pm and they closed at 10pm!). At least, I bought my new wallet which I really need one. Yes, kind of frustrated when Golden Compass was out of stock and couldn’t find Inheritance (yes, I didn’t know the author).

Can you see the shirt behind? Or am I too outstanding? Haha!

We went for dinner at Pak Hussin and back home.

It was tiring but glad I’ve my time back =)

I was down. Misunderstood with mom. So I need to be alone. Everybody was at Nurul’s house but I chose to stay home. Weekends are the only days I have to pamper myself or do my own things. I went to get laundry and a cute car stopped right in front of me. I smiled and thought “I will own this car…. Someday…”

It was Saturday. The plan was going fishing but changed at the very last minute for the ceremony since next week we will start fasting.

Bob came back. The ceremony started a bit clumsy. Bob and I took peoples at the mosque to Nurul’s house. So they did the prayer. We served them lunch. The lunch was Nasi Tomato, chicken, beef and vegetables (they ordered from the catering). Nurul’s mother-in-law cooked some fish curry, ulam, sambal belacan and fried fish. After they (yes, I still refer to the peoples from mosque) had eaten their lunch, me and Bob took them back to the mosque.

An hour after the person who suppose to shave Puteri’s (my niece if you read my blog earlier) head came. Here some pictures of the event:

Before she gets bald

See how she posed when sleeping =)

There she goes…

Click here to see the video =)

I was shock when Nani from Penawar Clinic told me that Ayu will move to Johore. Actually Nani called me regarding the bill that we sent to the clinic days before.

Lets flashback:

I went to the clinic for so many times (yeah regarding my imbalance blood pressure and tiredness with no reason – stress I’d say) and she fell for me (I didn’t even know when). She called me (yes she got my number when the first day I registered – how sneaky a girl could be haha no hard feeling girls out there!) to remind me about the medicine and whether the medicine works (oh yes, I got stress pills duh!). I simply replied “Yes… it should” since I already knew who is her. Then the story begins… (pah! We didn’t even go out for a date, so there is no story at all)

Well, we started to know each other since months ago. Not even had time to go out together. I have planned to go out with her for drink maybe movie before she goes to Johore. Hopefully…

Recently, I’m pretty down. Depression; yes exactly. I’m thinking about others too much. Yes, I wish I’m superman. Deep in my heart, I want to quit my job and run somewhere. Start whole thing from the beginning. But without me I know my family will goes paralyze. I can’t run from helping them to solve their problems but, until when? I’ve tried my best to control family budget but its getting hard when too much of credits than debits. How to stop the debt when there is no ending. I’ve told mom to trust me, do like what I said. It ends up sour face on her. This really annoys me. Feel like I’m a loser. I know I’ve brain and I can do better — be a better person. I should own a business, but when? I wish I’m stronger than now — stand on my feet and roar like a tiger to show that I’m strong enough and there is no fear in me.

Right now, I lose faith in myself.

I’m getting sick with water pressure at home. It’s getting weaker each day. The water from the mineral pot has been cut off by dad. Yea, it spoils the cabinet below caused by leaking. No ideas whether it just happen to my house or it happen to all houses in the neighborhood. Gees!

Too many things running in my head. Too many questions popup in my mind. I love my family so much, want them to be happy rather than myself. I really want to help mom solving her matter. But how? I’m stuck in depression; worked too hard to satisfy everybody. Stress with works, wish I can turn back time.

Live without friend is lonely. I hope I will get a better bless and have a better life. Money isn’t everything; but it can change something.

Yes, someone was right — how could I have a long distance love which always keep me in loneliness and leave me in cold all night long? I miss someone really someone who had passed away, the one showed me true love, the one who was purely love like a saint.

I miss good old days…